A moment of silence

And then I realize I was fueled with hatred because of something deeper that I did not want to face. That I still don’t see…hopefully It will come soon… through Reverie(s)?

Some people you miss and think of from time to time like a dead friend…those people who come to you in the moments of silence, where and when you remember the most important ones… this is how I will remember him and something in me is fighting this sight now because I am so incredibly sad, tears falling down my eyes… as I breathe… I cannot feel the warmth of the sun, I can’t hear the laughter… how destroyed am I to realize what I lose…

These tears of mourning are activating something in my brain… I feel deep inside my body, I really do… not all, not always, and when I don’t, it’s something I don’t like… and realizing this in itself helps me, it increases presence really…

I hope it helps you, why I keep this published.

July 2021 (probably at night) (edited Oct 2021)